This blog thing

Ok, so I obviously haven't been on here in quite a bit. Five months actually. I am terrible person. I know.  I thought this blog thing would work out, but there really hasn't been any time. I guess pictures and Twitter will help me remember this amazing year instead. So, this weekend I went to prom. I can't believe it actually happened. I remember watching American movies when I was younger and thinking: "I wish I could go to one of those." One thing that has become clear to me lately is that my dream - or obsession rather - with the US wasn't just something temporary. I do, and always will love America, despite its flaws and quirkiness. I don't think that a feeling such as love is only to be held for things or people that are perfect. That is how I justify it. Either way, I do know that I want to spend my life here, as hard as that is to admit. I also know from experience that when I have my eyes set on something, I usually get what I want. If that dream is a life in the US of A, or citizenship even, I believe that it will come true. Not because I dream, but because I will make it. Doubt has no place in a heart full of dreams. That's why I have chosen not to look at this dream of mine with uncertainty, but with joy.

Now I got completely off topic, which is ok, I suppose. It is my blog after all. I definitely do not have enough time or energy to write about all the significant events that took place during the past couple of months, but I will make sure to relive them once I am back. However, I want to mention a few things that I have done, thought of, or simply felt. It's time for a little list.

• I have gone to prom (starting out easy)
• I have become so much more outgoing, it's crazy
• I have had a BIG FAT CRUSH and I won't tell you on who
• I have found myself alone at a football game (freaked out but saw it as a social challenge sort of)
• I have been mistaken for an American multiple times (dream come true)
• I have felt miserable, lonely, and betrayed (it happens)
• I have started cussing like a bad bitch hahah
• I have been the weirdest possible version of myself and found that to be ok
• I have replaced my Tumblr addiction for a Twitter one
• I have gotten a second family, which I love with all my heart
• I have been to "the hood"(lol feel free to laugh)
• I HAVE BEEN TO JAPAN
• I have learned about football and baseball (both of which kick soccer's ass any day)
• I have watched westerns
• I have had detention
• I have learned to like who I am and to understand what that means

Most of all, I wanted to say that I have a lot of amazing people in my life. I truly do love each and every one of them. My problem is that they live on different continents. I will probably always struggle with that problem, but in the end, as Karl Mayer said (DH quote, get ready): "The heart wants what it wants."

Lastly, some prom pictures:

xxx,

Lillebil